Hope. Believe. Know. I read this the other day in an article from Deepak Chopra. I wanted to include the link, but after some kind of bizarre computer problem--you know, when you must accidentally click on an ad, and your computer goes into a frenzy, saying warning, and suddenly a porn address is showing up--and I had been at Oprah.com--so forget the link! I hoped I would find it...I believed it must be simple enough, but now I know to forget the idea! haha.
Anyhow, it was not an orginal thought of mine. But I found the words quite stirring for me. I have probably spent most of my life inbetween hoping something/someone would work out, and then believing--in my case, a person. I always hoped I could believe in the life I had, but I probably knew deep down it was just a frail moment in time at best. But I know now, that knowing something does not mean you believe it. Knowing something can be quite gut wrenching, so it is much easier to hope for and believe in the dream. Now that I write this down, I see I have lived them all, in kind of a desperate circle, often.
I hoped I would find my love of my life. I believed I did. I thought I knew I did on my wedding day and other milestone events..but I can see with some hindsight now that I was often hoping and believing that what I knew was really so.
I can now categorize my life much better. I wish I had even known of these words years ago..it might have helped direct me, or maybe it was there and I just could not see it...possible. But now I know. Know what..that I can no longer sell myself short and let myself down. There are some things I have known my whole life, and those have made my foundation and got me somewhat grounded, when my hopes and beliefs pulled away at what I wanted to build. It is all so strange to me now, like I was really asleep at the wheel for years..I almost laugh at it, because it is all so simple, but for ever, I could not see the forest for the trees.
Anyhow, it was not an orginal thought of mine. But I found the words quite stirring for me. I have probably spent most of my life inbetween hoping something/someone would work out, and then believing--in my case, a person. I always hoped I could believe in the life I had, but I probably knew deep down it was just a frail moment in time at best. But I know now, that knowing something does not mean you believe it. Knowing something can be quite gut wrenching, so it is much easier to hope for and believe in the dream. Now that I write this down, I see I have lived them all, in kind of a desperate circle, often.
I hoped I would find my love of my life. I believed I did. I thought I knew I did on my wedding day and other milestone events..but I can see with some hindsight now that I was often hoping and believing that what I knew was really so.
I can now categorize my life much better. I wish I had even known of these words years ago..it might have helped direct me, or maybe it was there and I just could not see it...possible. But now I know. Know what..that I can no longer sell myself short and let myself down. There are some things I have known my whole life, and those have made my foundation and got me somewhat grounded, when my hopes and beliefs pulled away at what I wanted to build. It is all so strange to me now, like I was really asleep at the wheel for years..I almost laugh at it, because it is all so simple, but for ever, I could not see the forest for the trees.
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