YAY YAY YAY on the election! Love Obama. LOVED his speech. I find myself mesmorized by him. I wish he was a pastor. He fits the bill way more than Romney, who has been a pastor.
Such a cadence in his speech, such a voice tone, that is so calming and very confident and humble and inspiring. I stand with him.
And we have pot legalized in WA, and gay marriage. What a win.
Fall is the perfect time of year. I have taken to walking my neighborhood quite often over the last 2 months, and find it quite calming. I guess I should have been walking a long time ago.
I see the same houses over and over, but being in a "storybook America" neighborhood, I never tire of them. I let my mind wander and wonder and think that maybe the walking will reveal something to me. There is great meditation in walking.
My 30th year high school reunion was pretty great. I think I look better now than I did 30 years ago, which makes me so happy :). But it is way beyond that. It was like walking back in time in a large way, these things are always like that, a moment in time back, for a night, and then back to day to day life. But the going back in time had a twist to it, I don't know, like viewing a little gem, a certain lost innocence, that for awhile, came back to be. Like the other night when I watched home movies of my two little girls, I have much more of my younger one as video cameras were much more prevalent 17 years after the first one. And watching those movies brings such a feeling to me, so nostalgic and also sad at the same time..almost too much. Photos don't quite bring that out as much, I think it is seeing it all in 3D, life before your eyes, that is past, can be hard to go back to, times gone by.
Anyhow, I was glad I made it. People were kind and genuine and there really was no sense of the superior, the " I did great, what about you.." that I may have worried on. And yet, it is over, and I don't know if I would venture a 40 year one.
My daughter got her PhD, and that was a bigger event than my 30th reunion. I am in awe of the accomplishments, and seemingly done with such ease. This is her time. My birthday brought me some soul searching on worth and financial distress, and took awhile to kind of rise above it. This year my goal is "day to day" seems like a good idea. Just work on the present, what can be done, and not look at what needs to be done in the future or what has happened in the past. Past is gone, and the future is always changing based on how we live the present.
I am working on my book right now, trimming it down, widening it up where needed, trying to find the voice I want to convey. I love the idea of a movie and a play being made from it. To think I sat here for years trying to convey something and that maybe it would end up having a bigger than I every expected life..or maybe nothing, that is the flip side, or maybe something little, maybe just a memoir for my kids..I don't know. But it calls me right now.
I am still in love. I love someone being so nice to me all the time, so dependable. Kind and sweet. Hand holding love that I wanted. Funny how having this element allowed me to breathe easier.
Seems it should be easy to find, I guess one has to be very clear on who they are and what they are looking for.
